….lots of changes are coming for me. After another disappointing week with WW – gained 0.2 my wheels have been spinning & I’m coming up with a whole new game plan. I’m hoping the motivation of something new will inspire me to keep going & not give up because simply that’s what will happen if I continue down this NON-losing streak I’m on.
I have started running again – and I’m back loving it. It’s the getting out the door that’s the hard part. Thankfully I did again tonight and I feel wonderful! Sure – I may have been the only one running on the track on the 4th of July while everyone else was stuffing their faces at BBQs, but that’s what I like!
Our weekend upstate didn’t happen this weekend – which was some what of a blessing in disguise I guess. I wasn’t feeling like going at the beginning of the week, but being our weekends up there are so far & few between we decided to just go for it. With Rich working on Saturdays we really can only go on long weekends. But long story short, the in-laws were sick & couldn’t join us so we cancelled the trip all together. The weekend ended up being a great one – an impromptu pool party/BBQ at friends on Saturday, Ecology Center so Natie could see the animals on Sunday & then play on the playground & then today was a day at the beach which included some sprinkler park fun – it was great!
Today, the 4th of July marks the 4 year anniversary of the day I found out my Brother had passed. I can’t help but think of my Brother every day… How I miss my Big Brother (who I’ve since passed in age.) How I wish he could see his beautiful children grow – and how much they need him. I will never forget the day I got the news…that night hearing fireworks – imagining people out having a great time, while my family was torn apart. To this day the sound of fireworks makes us sick, anxious and deeply depressed. So off I go to close all the windows, turn on the AC & up the TV to drown out the noise.