Wow – I think I had to dust off my keyboard to do this post.
Does anyone remember me? Anyone follow anymore?
I’ve been M.I.A. I’ve not only not updated my blog in over a month, but I haven’t visited many of my favorites in that time. I just shut down. Shut down from everyone & everything. Little Miss Negative Nancy came in AND guess what she did? She managed to gain 10 lbs. during that time.
Sure, there were a couple of great meals in there including a delicious Capesante al Tartufo, which is Pan seared jumbo sea scallops with truffle sauce served over mashed potatoes that I dined on (during our anniversary dinner at Westbury Manor, which also happens to be the place where we wed 6 years ago on October 30th) but other than that it was filled with a lot of unmemorable foods. Junk to be exact. Whatever was near made it to my mouth. No joy was received by this self proclaimed foodie. I’ve begin to realize, I may not enjoy food as much as I think I do. It may not be my love of food that has gotten me to this large size, but just plain overeating. Emotional overeating at that.
This time off has been filled with lots of “what ifs”, “how did this happen”, “can we get over this”, etc. Surprisingly (umm…as usual) my health & weight loss efforts took a back seat to all the “stuff” that was filling my head….and the binge wagon came on full effect.
I’m starting to realize, even though I’ve said it many times before, my eating habits reflect other things in my life & vise versa. Like – if my eating is out of control – so is the rest of my life. It’s an all or nothing road for me that I need to work on OR ELSE. (Can you believe I still haven’t gone for my blood work? The script sits in my purse…waiting for me to “face the facts”.)
These days I find myself staring out over the cliff. Do I jump? – or – Do I take control?
I’m chose the hard route & that is to take control. Once again I have a plan in mind, which oddly enough I’m not ready to share. HA!…I’m so mysterious aren’t I?!
My time off hasn’t been all that bad. In that time I celebrated my wonderful little boy’s, Natie’s, second birthday, my 6 year anniversary with Rich & an amazing, relaxing vacation that didn’t focus on food. It was a wonderful time where Rich & I reconnected – something we truly needed to do, and just spent a time as a family enjoy the simple things in life. I haven’t had a vacation like that EVER! I can’t wait until the next!
I’m glad to be back – I hope to be in this for the long haul. Thanks to those who contact me…it truly means a lot!